I have one green eye and one brown
eye. The green eye sees truth, but the brown eye sees much, much
more. My green eye sees what is. It is never fooled by makeup,
digital tricks, distracting hand-gestures, or an over-imaginative
mind that wants to see monsters in bedroom shadows. It is useful to
never be fooled by what you see, but sometimes I wish I could turn it
off. I'll never be able to watch movies with green screens and have
any idea of what was supposed to be inserted behind the
characters; my eye will see the green screen, and any green-suited
supporting cast members who were supposed to be invisible and
non-existent in the final cut. Maybe you didn't know directors used
things like that. I can't help seeing them. They are the truth behind
the fantasy.
I don't know if I can describe what
my brown eye sees. It sees hidden things, unspoken things, things
that are not, but want to be. It sees possibilities. It sees dreams.
It sees aspirations. Most of the time I can't make sense of what it sees.
Being telepathic would be useful; you could read someone's thoughts
and hear him think, “I wish people would notice me. Maybe now that
I've joined this acting class, things will change.” You'd hear that
in your mind, and know that person's secret wish. But what if I
looked at that person with my brown eye? I might see him standing up
tall, smiling dashingly and taking a bow. I might (with my green eye)
know that he is staring at the ground, shuffling past a group of
people, hands dug deep into his pockets, but my brown eye might see
him jumping up and down and waving his arms madly. I would have to
figure out for myself that he wants to be noticed, or that one day he
will become confident.
The worst is when I glance at a
person with my brown eye, and even though they are facing a different
direction, the brown eye sees them staring, lancing me with
their eyes. I don't know if they are thinking about me for some
reason, or if I should stare into that spectral face and discern
something within their eyes.
And why should I bother? What
business is it of mine what anyone else is going through? But I can't
help what I see. And I can't help wanting to help them, either.
That's what got me into this whole
predicament in the first place.
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This exercise comes from Gail Carson Levine's book Writing Magic; she supplied the first two sentences, and I had to run with it for 20 minutes. ... Maybe it's sad that I only got that much written in that much time? XD
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